War Of My Life

(to listen to the song in this blog, the music player thats automatically playing is found at the bottom of this site, go pause it;)

While I’m not the biggest enthusiast of John Mayer’s individual choices that doesn’t object to the reality that he is an exceptionally clever writer, and I still love his music. I thought I would share the song that has been on my mind today. Today wasn’t up to its typical standards just as soon as one stressful scenario would end, another began. On the contrary I’m breathing and I’m immensely blessed so I shouldn’t complain.

Here’s the song:)

Come out Angels. Come out Ghosts. Come out Darkness, Bring everyone you know I'm not running, I'm not scared I am waiting and well prepared I'm in the war of my life At the door of my life Out of Time and there's nowhere to run away I've got a hammer And a heart of glass. I got to know right now Which walls to smash I got a pocket Got no pills If fear hasn't killed me yet Than nothing will All the suffering and all the pain never left to label I'm in the war of my life at the door of my life out of time and there's nowhere to run I'm in the war of my life at the core of my life I've got no choice but to fight 'til it's done No more suffering No more pain Never again I'm in the war of my life At the door of my life Out of time and there's nowhere to run I'm in the war of my life I'm at the core of my life Got no choice but to fight 'til it's done So Fight on, fight on everyone, so fight on Got no choice but to fight 'til it's done I'm in the war of my life I'm at the core of my life I've got no choice but to fight 'til it's done

Information on the picture: it’s fairly old it will soon be about a year old. It’s of an old friend, I happened to pass by him on the road today. I've haven't seen him in many months. I doubted I was recognized due to the fact I'm bit incognito since I’m driving an unfamiliar car. I was so stressed from today’s series of events that I could not comprehend anything. When I'm like my face has a tendency to show no absolute existence of emotion; it wasn’t till after those few seconds passing by him that I just realized how horrible the look I gave him must have been. (The expression I had was not my intentions to be directed toward him or anyone) I’m positive I’m over contemplating the situation but I hope I never give anyone reason to think I hate them. From this I’m sure any reader has already made the observation that this friend and I have grown distant…complications, experience; life in general has gotten in the way. With that point initiated I would say we don’t hear from each other anymore. I’m not bitter from it, these pictures remind me to continually remember the high points of any previous friendships. I don’t see us progressing back into a friendship in the future, that’s not what I want I don’t like wasting my time when I’ve already experienced the outcome. That’s just life. The fun moments I have with all my friends are all cherished and well worth it. I hope I never develop into a bitter woman.

If a friendship becomes a complication and becomes too much to bear, and the escape the person made left its most prevalent damaging scars on me. I pray I may keep my mouth shut, let it go, and not cling to once was, whenever a person clings to anything that’s past they become bitter. It’s a matter of letting go and traveling with the speed that the current of life throws you into. Moving on is at its easiest now, I don’t have time to live in what was when what is, stands close and I’m running out of time. “Im in the war of my life at the door of my life. Out of time and there’s nowhere to run” 
I hope my writing on my dramatically normal day wasn't to much. I rarely ever write like this so I hope it isn't to horrible. Thats all for now.




To Leave this blog on an AMAZING note: 

magnificent.
I love this song, then I saw this live on youtube from a post on facebook I saw from a friend, so much more incredible. Thank you social network sites