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Dreamer's Realism

Cigarettes and power plants Will you concede to follow my lead? I’ll bring you far past mysteries. I’ll show you things you’ve never seen

Oceans and skyscrapers I’ll show you there’s more to give.Perceiving this as casual is your mistake there is more than whats betrayed. Things begin coiling out of your realism. New sceneries. 

I’m the dreamer my eyes are open 
Your vigilant your eyes are closed

War Of My Life

(to listen to the song in this blog, the music player thats automatically playing is found at the bottom of this site, go pause it;)

While I’m not the biggest enthusiast of John Mayer’s individual choices that doesn’t object to the reality that he is an exceptionally clever writer, and I still love his music. I thought I would share the song that has been on my mind today. Today wasn’t up to its typical standards just as soon as one stressful scenario would end, another began. On the contrary I’m breathing and I’m immensely blessed so I shouldn’t complain.

Here’s the song:)

Come out Angels. Come out Ghosts. Come out Darkness, Bring everyone you know I'm not running, I'm not scared I am waiting and well prepared I'm in the war of my life At the door of my life Out of Time and there's nowhere to run away I've got a hammer And a heart of glass. I got to know right now Which walls to smash I got a pocket Got no pills If fear hasn't killed me yet Than nothing will All the suffering and all the pain never left to label I'm in the war of my life at the door of my life out of time and there's nowhere to run I'm in the war of my life at the core of my life I've got no choice but to fight 'til it's done No more suffering No more pain Never again I'm in the war of my life At the door of my life Out of time and there's nowhere to run I'm in the war of my life I'm at the core of my life Got no choice but to fight 'til it's done So Fight on, fight on everyone, so fight on Got no choice but to fight 'til it's done I'm in the war of my life I'm at the core of my life I've got no choice but to fight 'til it's done

Information on the picture: it’s fairly old it will soon be about a year old. It’s of an old friend, I happened to pass by him on the road today. I've haven't seen him in many months. I doubted I was recognized due to the fact I'm bit incognito since I’m driving an unfamiliar car. I was so stressed from today’s series of events that I could not comprehend anything. When I'm like my face has a tendency to show no absolute existence of emotion; it wasn’t till after those few seconds passing by him that I just realized how horrible the look I gave him must have been. (The expression I had was not my intentions to be directed toward him or anyone) I’m positive I’m over contemplating the situation but I hope I never give anyone reason to think I hate them. From this I’m sure any reader has already made the observation that this friend and I have grown distant…complications, experience; life in general has gotten in the way. With that point initiated I would say we don’t hear from each other anymore. I’m not bitter from it, these pictures remind me to continually remember the high points of any previous friendships. I don’t see us progressing back into a friendship in the future, that’s not what I want I don’t like wasting my time when I’ve already experienced the outcome. That’s just life. The fun moments I have with all my friends are all cherished and well worth it. I hope I never develop into a bitter woman.

If a friendship becomes a complication and becomes too much to bear, and the escape the person made left its most prevalent damaging scars on me. I pray I may keep my mouth shut, let it go, and not cling to once was, whenever a person clings to anything that’s past they become bitter. It’s a matter of letting go and traveling with the speed that the current of life throws you into. Moving on is at its easiest now, I don’t have time to live in what was when what is, stands close and I’m running out of time. “Im in the war of my life at the door of my life. Out of time and there’s nowhere to run” 
I hope my writing on my dramatically normal day wasn't to much. I rarely ever write like this so I hope it isn't to horrible. Thats all for now.




To Leave this blog on an AMAZING note: 

magnificent.
I love this song, then I saw this live on youtube from a post on facebook I saw from a friend, so much more incredible. Thank you social network sites

Running Short on Time

So it’s been awhile since I’ve posted, life has gotten really busy to take an hour aside to transfer my journal to my computer. Primarily I do favor doing everything on a computer rather than writing, but keeping up with my devotions is one of the exceptions. A little update about my life for once, well everything is back on track so that means as the semester progress I’ll be even more cluttered and less available. My routine week consist of school, working, personal life (not really lol), sounds like the normal for any teen. A positive event that has come out of my routine is that I’ve gotten my sluggish self working out at six in the morning! I believe I am worthy of a virtual applause for that one……taking into consideration that is a miracle in itself. I love working out, but the opposition is mornings I tend to be not so infatuated with that. This routine continues Monday, Wednesday, and Friday since I only attend school on these days. I know I would agree that I’m very blessed when it comes to not have the same old dreaded five days a week. Sometimes I work after school just depends what I’m called in to do, if I happen to get out early I will then set out to escape to the humane shelter. I’m trying to get myself in the routine of making more time to spend there. Actually it’s less of an escape and more of a temporary in depth and very demanding test of patience. In fact I have never gotten so stressed in such a short amount of time. I love dogs to every extent in every aspect but when you have 600 long nailed, poo-covered paws, of bundling fluff jumping on you I believe anyone’s patience can be pushed to its limits. I guess my new mission is going to be getting 600 dogs not to jump during what little human movement they see so when it comes time for the climax of their day with a 20 minute one on one time with someone occurs it can be a bit more productive than ignoring them until they calm down. An update, I’ve gotten back into working on Romans 4 it should hopefully be up this week: )

“Praise the LORD. Praise the LORD from the heavens, praise him in the heights above. Praise him, all his angels, praise him, all his heavenly hosts. Praise him, sun and moon, praise him, all you shining stars. Praise him, you highest heavens and you waters above the skies. Let them praise the name of the LORD, for he commanded and they were created. He set them in place forever and ever; he gave a decree that will never pass away. Praise the LORD from the earth, you great sea creatures and all ocean depths, lightning and hail, snow and clouds, stormy winds that do his bidding, you mountains and all hills, fruit trees and all cedars, wild animals and all cattle, small creatures and flying birds, kings of the earth and all nations, you princes and all rulers on earth, young men and maidens, old men and children. Let them praise the name of the LORD, for his name alone is exalted; his splendor is above the earth and the heavens. “ Psalm 148

A Post For Politic Lovers

Just for debate, I am in a government class and we are asked to participate in group discussion. So whenever the teacher posts a discussion question we answer what our opinion is on it. In politics I would consider myself as a "swing voter" but in Obama's administration I'm not impressed with his decisions in 2009. So if someone wants to include their thoughts tell me what you think and your opinion. This may sound boring but it actually is kind of fun once you start to apply the president’s decisions and the consequences it may cause in your life. That’s when my interest in politics sparks. Enough of my endless blabber and here is what I wrote for the discussion.



The Obama Administraion
Where would you assess the Obama administration and the upcoming 2010 midterm elections. What are your predictions, and why?


My Response:
To make an assessment on Obama’s administration for what is to come in 2010 we first need to look at all the major decisions he has made in previous year.



Beginning of 2009 January 22, Obama signed an executive order in which to close Guantanamo Bay Naval Prison. It was promised here that within the first year of his office that Guantanamo would be closed, his plan here has failed while Guantanamo is still opened due to questioning on what to do with facility and prisoners of the penitentiary. Based on the expectations he set himself he did not meet his own objective.


Next, He dealt with the suffering economy Obama wished to pass a whopping 787 billion dollar stimulus plan in hopes to boost job availability but this bill lacked to offer full clarity on where the money will be spent. It was promised in February 2009 that this will decrease unemployment but today unemployment stands at 10% and a large portion of the stimulus bill remains unspent.


Though I admire Obama’s for his idea of creating peace, this thought is out of reality. He started off with the idea of what I like to call a fresh start to the war on terrorism, to prove America’s desire for peace he arranged an interview on Al Arabia television. To me Obama came across as very weak with his apologies toward America’s past aggressiveness. I believe that a nation should not be divided or it can never be successful and for Obama to apologize upon our “aggressiveness” I see no point in him doing so considering that the entire purpose of the war on terrorism is for the protection of America. It seems a bit farfetched to apologize for defending something. Obama quickly learned that the war on terrorism cannot be taken in a kind perspective and it is entirely real. Obama was quickly re-informed on how real this war is when the attack on northwest airlines on Christmas day occurred.


Obama promised to make an immigration reform a main concern in his beginning administration though it seems he excluded to take control of this matter in 2009. He promises that 2010 will addresses this matter. I hope that he keeps his promise in this area and I look forward to how he addresses this matter in 2010. Though because of his past decision and failure I hope I won’t be disappointed in however he chooses to solve this colossal dilemma though he has delayed it long enough.


Of course now health care, I’m still not looking forward to this bill being passed though it was planned to be passed in august 2009 it has not .


Obama has repeatedly set expectations he himself cannot meet therefore that is why swing voters, those who aren’t ideologically tied to either party are dissatisfied with this administration and they has lost confidence and approval of him. Concluding my point is that as long as Obama himself cannot meet his own expectations in whatever is to come in 2010 I predict he will further repeat this pattern and I myself will remain disappointed in his lack of fulfillment in Washington.

Being without Excuse

January 7, 2009

“For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God” Romans 3:23

I use this prominent verse to open up Romans 3 because this verse sums up what Paul has been addressing since chapter one. In Romans three Paul is beginning to deal with reoccurring arguments throughout this passage he reminds us of what’s most important. Neither Jews nor Gentiles nor anyone can obtain righteousness. We cannot justify or make ourselves righteous by obeying rules, regulations, commandments. In the end we all fall short of the glory of God.

“There is not a righteous man on earth who does what is right and never sins.” Ecclesiastes 7:20

“Therefore, just as sin entered the world through one man, and death through sin, and in this way death came to all men, because all sinned“ Romans 5:12

“Surely I was sinful at birth, sinful from the time my mother conceived me.” Psalm 51:5

Don’t mistake yourself, do not judge, and don’t lose yourself to self righteousness. For it is only by God’s grace any good exists in any of us.

On the Day of Judgment I pray that when I stand before Him, I call out His name proclaiming that He is all I have, He is life, and He is the only good that exists within me. I do not deserve the gift of entering heavens gates but it is threw His grace for sending His son that I can enter. I had nothing in me that gives reason for why I should be granted eternity in heaven other than because He has perfect judgment He knows where my heart stands, He knows my sins, He knows me.

January 13 & 14,

In Romans 2 Paul addresses a very critical aspect of humans, our CONSCIENCE. The simplest explanation for conscience is that it’s a standard a human sets himself of what is morally right or wrong. Everyone has it, God set this in us, and otherwise judgment among ourselves wouldn't exist. When I see someone doing something that I disagree on I judge what they do upon their character. Paul addresses here that we have no excuse for denying Gods existence for the truth of God has been revealed in man’s conscience.  Otherwise why would there even be a standard of living of what is morally right and wrong existing in us? What purpose would it serve, and why should we care whether there is a right and wrong. 

“The heavens declare the glory of God;  the skies proclaim the work of his hands. Day after day they pour forth speech; night after night they display knowledge” Psalm 19:1-2

Know that though your conscience exists it is not fair or just, our minds tend to be very biased and how are we to grant ourselves the right to proclaim that someone is wrong when we are guilty of sin also.

“You, therefore, have no excuse, you who pass judgment on someone else, for at whatever point you judge the other, you are condemning yourself, because you who pass judgment do the same things. Now we know that God's judgment against those who do such things is based on truth.” Romans 2:1-2

Through our conscience we know there exist a creator, and then there is the controversy of If God exists why he lets tragic things happen, Romans 1:24, 26 and 28. We are given a choice, whether we choose to accept there’s a God and live by His laws or go on living the way that’s pleasing to us. God is not going to stop us, He gives us the assurance that we will reap what we sow

“He will repay each one according to his works” Romans 2:6

“If you say, “But we didn’t know about this,” Won’t He who weighs hearts considers it? Won’t He who protects your life know? Won’t He repay a person according to his work?” Proverbs 24:12

It’s so sad to see that so many people turn from God. Rather than seeing that God exists and it true and perfect in all things we only credit Him to all the events that hurt us. I hope I can learn to praise God through every storm and challenge and know that He only desires His will for me.

January 16,

It is by God’s grace we have life, we should praise Him for His grace, perfection, and know that as it speaks in Romans 3 that it is impossible to avoid judgment day. We must all stand before Him, we are all given an invitation to have eternal life, my prayer this week is that because I already have the precious gift of salvation that I can step up to the plate and help another find this. What I learned from Romans 1-3 is that we are all sinners; God shows His evidence through everything, we as humans cannot judge since we are sinners also. Most important all humans fall short in effort to attain a pure and perfect relationship with Christ but because Jesus has already come and done what none of us could achieve we now may have an unfathomable closeness with God. We have such an advantage that Paul didn’t have the Savior has already come, and been resurrected now is the time to share and show the evidence of Him by showing Him through our lives. 

“For since the creation of the world God's invisible qualities—his eternal power and divine nature—have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that men are without excuse.” Romans 1:20

SIDE NOTE:sorry for a random picture, I'm not sure what to take a picture of, as of late:( If you have any ideas please tell me! and I'll make an attempt to do it!

His Masterpiece

I'm taking a break from my study in Romans in this blog, as I was looking through my previous blogs for mistakes, and grammar errors, I came to notice how serious my writing is. Yes, there is a time to be serious, there’s a time to be silly, there’s a time to laugh, a time to cry, a time to rejoice. Ecclesiastes 3 speaks of this. Which brought to my attention, why do I feel I have to be serious when I speak of God’s word, his word is such a joyous thing yet in my writings it seems to cloud that. I actually don’t think it’s the subject that sets the tone in which I write. I came to the conclusion it’s me, in whatever writing I have it is always in such a serious tone. I know truly it’s because I’m hiding behind this “mask” the only time I feel like I’m being taken in all seriousness is through my writing. I feel like people don’t truly see me as who I am, it’s not their fault either, how can they not misjudge me when I misrepresent myself by hiding underneath what’s not truly me.

One of the focal causes I see myself flawed in is the way I let myself appear to others. My dissatisfaction with myself is obvious from the way I dress, to the way I hold myself, but to me the biggest factor is makeup it’s become a bit of a security blanket for me since middle school. I’m not sure if this is a relatable topic, but the reason why I see it as a dilemma is because it was made to enhance features, not cover, cloud, and clobber its way over them to create something so fake.

The real masterpiece is what’s underneath, what Gods work of art truly is. I of course have many other bad habits, and dependencies  on other unnecessary things, but this one hit me today, because how can I expect people to see me for who I truly am on the inside if I can’t let them see me who how I truly am on the outside. I’ve let looks and appearance ruin me and destroy my self esteem. I’m not telling people to not take care of themselves I’m simply saying, don’t let appearance become your number one priority, looks fade but your heart doesn’t shift as easily if its firmly planted in God. I think I’m going to begin a new chapter and ease up on the makeup as much as possible. So when I wake up in the morning my first intention is spend time in devotion rather than going with a pessimistic outlook and thinking that God made a mistake on the way He made me so I’ll waste an hour fixing all my “flaws”. I should rejoice God for every curve, freckle, and hair He put on me, I am beautiful both outwardly most importantly inwardly.

The other thing, I use makeup as a security blanket for I feel like people take me more seriously for some reason I feel as if I fill more grown up, and they don’t see the child in me. I can describe my personality as bubbly but I love being taken serious, I love smiling, but I love a good debate, I love reasoning, I love working. For some reason I feel as if without makeup people take me for as a child, I feel like the picture posted above of me on the right is the girl I want to show everyone on the left is the girl I am hiding who God really made her.

“For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.” Psalm 139:13-16

God made you exactly the way your suppose to be, he didn’t miss one detail, he didn’t make one flaw. Remember that daily. You are His beautiful masterpiece 

side note: yes those are real tears, and surprisingly really hard to capture on camera. I promise I'm not "emo",(I was just trying to show an illustration) I seriously can just open a birthday card that a family member wrote me and start crying I absolutely love things that are sentimental and come from the heart, every year I have to prepare myself for my birthday in case my grandfather writes me a card. I'm just like him, we always both cry about cards:)

Faith is Obedience, Living More By Faith

Faith is Obedience

December 28,

“We have received Grace and apostleship through Him to bring about the Obedience of faith among all nations, on behalf of his name, including yourselves who are in Jesus Christ by calling” Romans 1:5

I went back to the beginning of Romans in order to start a detailed study on Romans, in Romans 1:1-8 Paul reveals His mission to bring about the truth of God’s word to all outside of the Jewish community.


It was Romans 1:5 that brought up the big question to me …faith (on the surface its applying beliefs but there is so much more to it than that) for me I struggle with the overall concept of how my faith is revealed daily among others. Paul speaks of something though, He says “obedience of faith” what is this that Paul speaks of what is obedience of faith?


Throughout Romans 1:1-16 it will be revealed, but let me start from the beginning

“Paul, a slave of Christ Jesus, called as an apostle and singled out for God’s good news”

-side note: Paul is the author of Romans, so why does he refer himself as a “slave or bond servant of Christ”?
Paul is merely confirming that he desires to be a servant of Jesus, as a servant it is fairly clear what they do. They serve under their Master, King, Owner, Boss (You can see where I’m going with this) as sons and daughters of Christ fallowing in Paul’s footsteps is a daily series. Considering once we give ourselves over to God, He is our King, our Master, He’s our Father and by simply saying we are a servant and we have the choice to serve Him


So from Romans 1:1-4

“Paul, a servant of Christ Jesus, called to be an apostle and set apart for the gospel of God the gospel he promised beforehand through his prophets in the Holy Scriptures regarding his Son, who as to his human nature was a descendant of David, and who through the Spirit of holiness was declared with power to be the Son of God by his resurrection from the dead: Jesus Christ our Lord”

What is learned of Him I Highlighted,(basically the entire thing)
My main points are


1. SALVATION spoken, in verse two, SALVATION IS THROUGH JESUS
God has always sought for man to have fellowship with Him, Paul points out that the gospel was a fulfillment of the prophecy (verse one)


2. The Physical Aspects in the Fulfillment of the Prophecy , we learn here that God’s Son will be a descendant of King David.

And He will be verified God’s son through His resurrection


Verse 5: (At the begging of the blog, Top starting verse)

In this verse its evident the Gospel is the complete expression of God’s grace and compassion to mankind.




Then the he mentions obedience of faith. In this short sentence it can be thought of as an active response to your Faith in God, through that shows itself in obedience


• OBEDIENCE OF FAITH- RESPONSE TO GOD. FAITH THAT SHOWS ITSELF IN OBEDIENCE
(Keep this in mine threw your daily rituals)

“So I am eager to preach the good news to you also who are in Rome. For I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is God’s power for salvation to everyone who believes, first to the Jew, and also to the Greek. For in it God’s righteousness is revealed from faith to fait just as it is written: The righteous will live by faith” Romans 1:15-17

I urge to have Paul’s enthusiasm and put aside fears to be an example also, I will continue to pray that I will let that flaw in me go, and give my worries to God. Then Paul goes on saying He is not ashamed of the gospel, in short He does not fear the consequences that come about with sharing it to others. In the environment I live in I am so richly blessed, sheltered, and many Americans have gotten to the point where they are in this “safe harbor” we refuse to leave this corridor because we seek control, we assume we have control.


In truth, we really are blinding ourselves from God’s full glory. I suffer each day with speaking up and speaking out for God. I hope in days soon to come I will leave my safe harbor and through God’s timing His full purpose will be revealed so I may actually live a life worth living. Lastly in the last point in 17 Paul quotes Habakkuk 2:4

“Look, his eye is inflated; he is without integrity. But the righteous one will live by his faith” Habakkuk 2:4

LIVING MORE BY FAITH


What faith is, becomes evident in 17 so we can live more by faith(refer back to 5 also) ACT OF OBDEDIENCE .


Person who has faith believes in the life, death, and resurrection of Jesus Christ. Faith is a large topic to speak about and is very in depth but faith is believing both what is evident and what is not seen.  Please, take advantage of the knowledge we have as Christians living in this time, It is written already of Jesus’ life, death, resurrection. We have it so easy, we get to look forward to His return. 

“THE RIGHTEOUS WILL LIVE BY FAITH”

December 30,

“Because if anyone is a hearer of the word and not a doer, he is like a man looking at his own face in a mirror; for he looks at himself, goes away, and right away forgets what kind of man he was.” James 1:22-24

I’m starting on a bit of a different note my new found friend sent that to me, it is a beautiful verse: and it ties in well with what I’ve been journaling about in Romans. Paul’s mission is now to evangelize to the world of the gospel. Which in turn if you think about it ties in with the obedience of faith

And now back on obedience of faith…its the equivalent of one saying : “I accept , completely, absolutely, completely, determinedly, exactly what God says is so is so, and I stake my life on it” - A. Gene Veal


Its having enough trust in what is not seen, and to persevere through it all and move forward and do what we are called to do.

“That if you confess with your mouth, "Jesus is Lord," and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you confess and are saved.” Romans 10:9-10

Remember the apostle Peter, Matthew 14 is a great example of obedience of faith. When the apostles were on the boat and saw the “ghost” upon the water. They cried out, who it is. Jesus answered to them, Peter in response told the Lord if He really is Jesus to command Peter out on the water to walk with Jesus. Jesus said come, in obedience to Jesus peter stepped out on the water. Lets not forget peter doubted Jesus and feared when the winds blew, and he started to sink but unlike the others Peter did in fact at that moment show his faith through obedience.


Once one starts walking by faith, you will face challenges that will present themselves as impossible to overcome. That is when one is forced to have faith, from there you will make the choice to obey or not

“Faith sees a reality. Faith recognizes fact or it isn’t fait” - A. Gene Veal

“Now faith is the reality of what is hoped for, the proof of what is not seen” Hebrews 11:1

What makes faith, is that it is that response to obey on what we cannot see, and it’s those invisible facts.
Do not misinterpret faith as hope
Faith gives substance. Faith makes the desire or hope to be saved the actuality of salvation/

“According to the command of the eternal God, to advance the obedience of faith among all nations - to the only wise God, through Jesus Christ- to Him be the glory forever! Amen” Romans 16: 26-27

Power of the Flesh

The Death of Flesh:

December 20, 2009

“When you were dead in your sins and in the uncircumcision of your sinful nature, God made you alive with Christ. He forgave us all our sins, having canceled the written code, with its regulations, that was against us and that stood opposed to us; he took it away, nailing it to the cross. And having disarmed the powers and authorities, he made a public spectacle of them, triumphing over them by the cross.” Colossians 2:13-15

"Therefore, ridding yourselves of all moral filth and evil excess, humbly receive the implanted word, which is able to save you" James 1:21

So I’ve been working on this journal since the fifteen. This has been a challenge considering this is less of a personal journal and more of a teaching and I want the point to be clear and I want God’s purpose in it, not mine.

When I started, I had the idea that I could somehow address the overall main points of what this is about. I’ve been doing a study in Romans (this book is truly moving, it has pushed me to move forward in my devotions.)In Romans, and Galatians Paul speaks of dying to “self” or as I refer to man’s flesh. Though, it came to a surprise when I’ve come across numerous chapters in the bible speaking to us on how crucial it is as Christians or followers that we bare the cross and consider ourselves dead to sin. What is the thing that makes it seem impossible for us to do so?

On the surface it’s our flesh, our flesh is our temptations, desires, lust, wants, needs, fulfillments, it’s that unlimited want for all things worldly that will never satisfy. In all its anything that God ask us to rid our bodies of.

December 21, 2009


For me flesh is:
That voice that almost seems to rule me in situations, it’s almost seems impossible to say no. It’s the urge that always seeks fulfillment. I’m not just speaking about the stupid outcomes I have when they make a senseless decision. I’m strongly addressing those urges or desires one has, when it feels that no matter the outcome there isn’t a consequence, the “secret” desires that becomes impossible to overlook. When you find yourself alone or when your mind starts to devote itself on that desire. People think in these situations when they fall for the fleshes inner desires that there is no consequence for it. In most cases those are the most damaging, they are the desires that challenge who we are most.

“For the death that He died, He died to sin once for all; but the life that He lives, He lives to God. Even so consider yourselves to be dead to sin, but alive to God in Christ Jesus.” Romans 6:10-11

“I say then, walk by the Spirit and you will not carry out the desire of the flesh. For the flesh desires what is against the Spirit, and the Spirit desires what is against the flesh; these are opposed to each other, so that you don’t do what you want.” Galatians 5:16

I decided to write on this because everyone finds themselves at that cross road, when they feel all is wrong. They see all the attempts they have made in pursuit of happiness or fulfillment for that gap, and they know all have failed. It’s that emptiness that can’t be filled because of man’s unlimited desires of the flesh. It’s that point of realization that hits hardest for a Christian that they haven’t lived to God’s purpose because they haven’t died to their flesh. Dying to the flesh is a daily trial that all Christians in their spiritual walk must endure. For those who have come to this point remember this verse, for encouragement

“and if children, heirs also, heirs of God and fellow heirs with Christ, if indeed we suffer with Him so that we may also be glorified with Him.” Romans 8:17

“Where the mind goes man fallows, What you and I allow into our inner life will eventually be seen in our outer life.”(Joyce Meyer) So if I allow garbage with music, friends, or whatever it is…it will affect my inner life and it works the other way also.

The solution? It should be as obvious as it sounds, but because we are human we see and have obtained intelligence, but as humans always do we like to cloud it with excuses. RID YOURSELF OF IT. Whatever it is, throw it out, if you have to cry, and pray about it, it’s ok. Know why you’re doing it and seek to do it with the passion that God gave you for Him so you can look toward Him and not fail.

“Everyone who makes a practice of sinning also practices lawlessness; sin is lawlessness. You know that he appeared to take away sins, and in him there is no sin. No one who abides in him keeps on sinning; no one who keeps on sinning has either seen him or known him.” John 3:4-5

If you seek God you seek his purpose, I know the feeling of being lost because you’re wondering how to get out of a social group, rid yourself of an addiction/habit, or how to overcome any desires. First you have to come to the realization that you really have to let it all go. Stop trying to manage or worry about the situation and know when to bring it to the Creator and give up the battle that you’ve already lost long ago. Let Him control the situation and let Him make you into the masterpiece you were initially designed to be.

"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” Matthew 6: 25-34

Seek God everyday though you may not see where you’re going He will guide you, always.

A Love Profound

I’ll begin my first blog with a little about myself,
-Purpose for creating a blog?

God revealed to me His presence through someone recently with an ordinary life from a distance; though the further I familiarized myself with this individual I started to see the most extraordinary person God has made her(Stephanie), it is so unmistakable how her entire life is utterly fixated in God.

I’ve found it hard to lead when I’m surrounded in an environment where it’s a rare occasion I spend with someone who may be younger than me yet these people who are a part of my daily ritual I never hear my Savior proclaimed by their words, actions, neither is there evidence of Him in their daily lives. I felt like sometimes growing in God and having my life surrounded daily by nothing that glorifies Him becomes an impossible attainment to live up to. I realize though growing and fallowing God is not simply an achievement it is solely a LIFE CALLING. He has called upon me as His child to do so,

“Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.”1 Timothy 4:12

A shocking detail that astonishes me is that I have never met this woman I simply came across her blogs, testimonies, and daily life while looking at a mutual friend’s page. My first impression was considering it coincidental. Though I know not to be so naive to assume such, I am aware that God has purpose in the strange “coincidences” He creates every day, his existence is undeniable in all things.

The first eye catching post of Stephanie’s that I began taking much interest in was a weekend revival, that took place at her house with college women, what they talked over cut me to the deepest core of my convictions. The more I read the more I studied late into the night on God’s word against sexual immorality and what she the arguments she made were undeniable, the evidence in her post shattered all of my excuses.


I had lust upon my heart for a guy, in my Savior's eyes He sees my thoughts, and considers equal to all other sins. My excuses were feeble I tried to justify my conscious by stating, I’m still saving myself I still haven’t have sex. If I would have continued this I now realize I would very soon ruin the opportunity that God has a special person in store for me. If God sees His work in me without someone I am just as blessed if not more because He has more important missions for me. Staying on the track of my blindness I could of easily gave myself to next guy that I would mistake "be the one."

I’m so glad God has awakened me. I’m finding strength and guidance and TRUE COMPLETELY LOVE in Him. I’m eradicating myself of the same routine I distract myself with. This year, this life of mine is His, for His purposes so I may become a woman of virtue grounded upon Him so I may live up to all He has in store

“For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.You will seek me and find me then you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you," declares the LORD, "and will bring you back from captivity.I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you," declares the LORD,"and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile."Jeremiah 29:11-14

God has blessed me with passion, perseverance, above us love. I am so blessed by Him I look forward witnessing His calling for all His children

"A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another."John 13:34


p.s. for those on here who read this, most do not know anything about me. All the photos I publish on here I take..I love taking pictures, I've always wanted to have a very vintage style to my photos. I never been able to achieve that though considering most of the time vintage photos look best with Models, and brick buildings, etc. I've always been attached, and allured to the natural beauty God has made...probably because it’s so much more complex, beautiful, and perfect than mans greatest achievements and creations


Poem I wrote in November I found myself at a cross point deciding on wither I truly live life or sell myself short

Lust, anger, jealousy, envy, selfishness, above all love

All which can eradicate ones heart, the mind fallows once the heart breaks

Nothing satisfies, nor compels one toward the pursuit of happiness

Though doubt along with perception and inquiring upon the being of who I am

With each doubt, question, it brings me closer to the one complete passion I intended for

Life, breath the clearness of certainty in fulfillment in this…

I hope, pray, I draw nearer to this a rare completion in hopes to conquer